A month later......

So it's been awhile since I updated this thing.. And I have gotten a lot better about being a douche but there are so many moments of the day that I could still improve. Take yesterday for instance, I went to a party had a little to drink and fell back in the same patters and routines.  That's simply not what I'm going for.  I would love to be a university professor and simply stated many fall short of being role models.  I want to be a person the students will aspire to be like, for my kind words, wisdom and compassion.  Although I have fallen short I will simply get up brush myself off and move forward from here on out.  I know a lot of my behavior that is self-destructive, i.e. drinking too much, is due to feeling nervous and never addressing it openly.  I have got to man up and face my demons in order to  become a better person.