Monthly update

It's that time when I reflect again on how I have been.  I have change and will continue to grow. I smile a lot more and I tend to deliver more kind words than insults. And I love it! I'm not perfect nor will I ever be however, as I continue to venture on this mortal coil I find that positivity makes the world go round. I just did the gallup strengths finder and Positivity was in my top five. It is now my goal to embrace this on a daily basis!

A month later......

So it's been awhile since I updated this thing.. And I have gotten a lot better about being a douche but there are so many moments of the day that I could still improve. Take yesterday for instance, I went to a party had a little to drink and fell back in the same patters and routines.  That's simply not what I'm going for.  I would love to be a university professor and simply stated many fall short of being role models.  I want to be a person the students will aspire to be like, for my kind words, wisdom and compassion.  Although I have fallen short I will simply get up brush myself off and move forward from here on out.  I know a lot of my behavior that is self-destructive, i.e. drinking too much, is due to feeling nervous and never addressing it openly.  I have got to man up and face my demons in order to  become a better person.

 Today, is the day that I have decided to start a personal journey of growth and change.  Oftentimes I utter words without realizing the implications that they have upon other people.  I do not mean to offend and demean, yet that is what often happens without intention.  I am confident in myself and this confidence often missteps in the direction of arrogance.  Arrogance in my opinion not only makes you look ridiculous but demeans people around you.  This is a travesty for me personally since I hate the portion of American society that relies on putting others down, whether this is for humor or some other motivation.  I'm now seeking to promote authentic positivity through the world and the first place is to start with myself.  I only hope that this journey of self discovery allows me to spread cheer and good tidings to all mankind.